Wednesday, December 24, 2008


tomorrow is the first christmas in 24 christmases that i won't be waking up to open presents with my brother and sister, laughing at my dad's attempt at still trying to fool us with a wrong-handed santa note. it makes me sad, but it also makes me happy to be growing up and starting my own christmas mornings.

our running around starts tonight...we're trying to spend time with both sides of both of our families, which is going to leave us exhausted, but hopefully it will be as stress-free as possible. tonight is with my dad's family, then his mom's afterwards. tomorrow morning, we're going to wake up early(ish), have coffee, and exhange gifts with each other. then its off to his parents' for breakfast, followed by grandma sue's, and then back to offut lake for dinner.

i need the snow to stop. its killing my christmas spirit. actually, its not doing much for any kind of spirit i should have, holiday or otherwise. i hate being stuck having to depend on other people for everything. i'm an independent girl and i just want to drive to the grocery store by myself.

please enjoy my note to santa from a few years ago... i really enjoyed waking up to see that someone had eaten most of the banana, part of the orange, and took a good bite out of the raw potato...
merry christmas

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

she's alive!

i really havent dropped off the planet... i just dont have internet at home for another week :( the good news is - we finally moved!! we're in a townhouse thats only about five minutes from where i lived with my family :) here are a few pictures of our before...and after pictures will have to wait until i've finished decorating ;) the livingroom with our adorable indoor patio area...haha there used to be a fireplace but apparently getting rid of the bricks wasnt a high priority
dining room!
la cocina! washer and dryer go on the end of the counter by the back door
i have stairs! my poor knees!
after an afternoon of unloading cars with cito :)

fat grace tried to keep my tv stand...

Monday, December 1, 2008


tomorrow i am going to look at a townhouse. i looked at this place (well, one completely identical to it) three months ago. jesse and i liked it and filled out applications on it and when we tried to get them back to the landlord woman, she had fallen off the planet. turns out she was in the hospital for a month, which is why we couldnt get ahold of her. now she's posted another place and we jumped on it. its three bedrooms, two baths, two stories, in a quiet little neighborhood, clean, and classy. i'm crossing everything that this works out. i hope if it works, that it works right now and we dont have to wait until january to move.

and it woudnt be december without a countdown:

Sunday, November 30, 2008

i did it.

i didn't miss one day of blogging in november. there wasnt something substantial every day, but it felt good to attempt to document my day-to-day life, from the huge things like finding my wedding dress, to the little things like watching elf, to the out-of-the-ordinary things like being escorted out of a casino. i slacked a little on the picture taking, so sue me.

my brain is full of things that i dont know what to do with. some of them confuse me. some of them upset me. some of them frustrate me. i dont think even one makes me happy right now. my life is at an impasse. i need to move forward. i'm stuck in one place, but at the same time, i'm being pulled in every direction. i dont know what to do, and i hate it. i'm trying to use my resources, but i feel alone in all of my efforts, which leaves me more confused, upset, and frustrated than i was to begin with.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

i love christmas movies

but i love smiling, smiling's my favorite!

Friday, November 28, 2008


well, shopping wasnt that fantastic this year. by far the most disappointing year i've gone out. i got a few good things, mostly dvd's, but not really anything i went looking for. except a pretty bookcase, but grandma sue wouldn't let me buy it, she bought it for me instead. some people.

going back to target tomorrow to see if they've restocked for their two-day sale. keep your fingers crossed - i want psych on dvd :)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

time constraints

hopefully i can keep up with my goal of blogging everyday this month and make it here tomorrow, but just in case, i'd like to acknowledge a few things i'm thankful for.

  • my lobster
  • family
  • my wonderful new family
  • friends who are there through thick and thin
  • freedom
  • coffee
  • the fact that my car is still alive and kicking
  • david crane, marta kauffman, & kevin bright.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

quit being pushy.

maybe you're working on commission. maybe your boss is watching you. maybe you're just that annoying. but, david's bridal girls, please quit hovering. just because i say garter does not mean you should run around the store looking for one. just because someone says jewelry does not mean i need to wear everything that david's has.

so please, just help me button up the huge bra and let me dive into my dress and then be on your merry way.

Monday, November 24, 2008

good for mankind.

so i spent my sunday morning donating my time to the less fortunate - without coffee, no less. we boxed thanksgiving dinners at the food bank, just like we do every year. here's me & payten being awesome. she's so cute, i hate that she's taller than me ;)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

a follow-up.

so, my being escorted out of a casino wasnt really that huge of a deal, but i found it quite amusing. vic and i worked at a fight last night selling rockstar energy drinks.
after the last fight was over, we grabbed our stuff and tried to haul ass out of there to beat the crowds, not to mention the 80 one-dollar bills in my purse from our tip jar that i was trying to keep from being grabbed off my shoulder.

we were stopped by a woman working casino security who clearly thought it was 1986 due to her permed ponytail and large owl-esque glasses, who i honestly thought was going to check our id's to see if we were even old enough to be in the casino in the first place. turns out, she wanted to confiscate our beverages. our unopened cans of rockstar from the casino event center not one hundred yards away. "you're not allowed to have outside open containers in here" we were informed. which i then rebutted that our open containers were actually closed and we were going to be keeping them and all we wanted to do was leave the casino, which is what we were attempting when we were so abruptly stopped. she then becomes irritated with my smart assedness and tells me that someone will see us out.

i told vic that our moms would be so proud that we were kicked out of a casino :)
yeah, we're bad.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

a first.

tonight i was escorted out of a casino. it's been a long night. more to come tomorrow after a good sleep and lots of coffee in the morning.
"i'm not trying to meddle, but you might wanna cool it with the coffee there, guy"

Friday, November 21, 2008

my thoughts of the evening.

1. margaritas are great.
2. i cant wait to see twilight, i dont care what the reviews are.
3. i love jesse. i miss him.
4. nyquil is the best invention in the whole world.
5. i'm excited to spend tomorrow evening with vicki. we're going to have so much fun together :)

Thursday, November 20, 2008


i hate guilt trips. like i dont have enough stress in my life. i'm off to go do something for someone else, as always.
please enjoy my scary angry face.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

i love tv.

i probably love it too much. but i dont care. its nice to get lost in something weird and gross like murder mysteries and gorgeous fbi ex-vampires.
he's so beautiful, i could almost rip my eyes out. almost.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

life lesson for today:

eight below. do not watch this movie ever.
on top of being sick and not being able to breathe, crying for two hours does not help. the only movie i've ever cried more during was steel magnolias.

off to take some more nyquil. we're best friends.

Monday, November 17, 2008

this week the trend

1. prison break is stressful.
2. my throat hurts.
3. customers were weird today.

i decided to copy my barista girls and be trendy...behold my new toenails:

jesse hates them. oh well, they're not forever. its much too soggy for flip flops right now anyways.

me and my tylenol pm are off to sleep. hopefully i wake up tomorrow feeling better than i did today.

p.s. one month till my birthday! but i'm starting over at three, not going to twenty-three.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

you offer me some punch but i just shrug

just like relient k, i hate christmas parties.

okay, i dont hate them, i just mildly dislike them. i hate semi-dressing up... i want to wear jeans, night pants, or my wedding dress. and that's it. not a sweater or something stupid. my football jersey, cyndi lauper sweatshirt, and slippers. and i hate small talk. i make enough small talk at work, i dont need it on the weekend, too.

but jesse's work party was in the building that we almost were going to have our reception in, but i chose the other one. thank goodness, because the one we were in tonight was way ugly and i'm brilliant and picked the cheaper, and apparently the much more attractive one. ten points for me.

i cant wait to eat wedding cake :)

Saturday, November 15, 2008

best friday ever.

after one of the most frustrating and emotionally draining weeks in a very long time, i had the best friday in the history of ever.

i got to cook coffee and quote christmas vacation with vicki all morning, i had a cheese bagel and a quad shot caramel macchiatto for lunch, i got to play with my olive and then scrapbook with my twin separated at birth. we went out and drank last night and had so much fun. and then jesse kept me warm while we slept :)

Friday, November 14, 2008


in the words of bill cosby, "i am going out to have a good time"

hopefully the evening will not end with another bill cosby quote "i love you, toilet bowl. no one understands me like you do toilet bowl"


Thursday, November 13, 2008

morale boosting.

my week seems to continue to kick my ass repeatedly. which doesnt appear to help in my picture taking. after another rough day, i'm going to try and find 13 things (on the 13th, get it?) that are making me happy, or will make me happy, so i can go to bed not feeling so morose.

1. the jets beat the patriots (!!!!!!!!!)... this almost never happens :)
2. man alive, brett favre is so hot.
3. i get to see my twin tomorrow... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4. i get to see my olive tomorrow... !!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. friday morning coffee cooking with vicki
6. i'm so excited to see the look on ash's face when she opens her birthday present
7. rum & diet cokes tomorrow night
8. zenon was on today!
9. there's an old apple cup on...the cougs are actually winning, i forgot what that was like
10. zoom zoom zoom, make my heart go boom boom, my supernova girl
11. i think i'm going to take a flamingo purse to the scrapbook convention tomorrow... and my new tree hugger bag!
12. today is grandpa pearce's birthday :)

i hit you with my best shot (and fired away). now it's time for pat benetar to go to bed.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008


let me start by expressing my disdain for female reproductive parts. i cant wait till i have kids and get all my insides taken out. stoked.

this morning my best friend challenged me to take and post twelve pictures on the twelfth. so, here's some more of my life...
my best elisia, making coffee for another helpless customer, with her fab new lipgloss :)

this is what the counter looks like after all of thurston county decides they need coffee all at one time

my fridge turkey :)

emo latte

brent's book i found at the library. he's thrilled.

grammy sue and the sewing machine...trying to outsmart it.

grandpa jake, asleep as always :)

my dinner...taco bell's zesty chicken bowl (sin pollo) & my cold as the rockies beverage

my room is so empty :(

pretty flamingo light! and you can even see what time i took it ;)

a delicious-smelling early christmas present from a customer

my legs and comfy flamingo feet

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


fair warning: i suck at my november goal and this is going to be another picture-less entry. this is going to be grumpy and emotional, so be prepared, or flip a bitch and head for the hills now.

i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of everyone. while i appreciate that people care enough about me to share their opinions, about everything, i dont need any more advice. i need support. i need to feel appreciated. i need to know that i'm more than someone to clean up everyone's messes and run everyone's errands. i'm a run-down mother way before my time.

i dont need to be told that i need to wear a veil to my wedding. this is not 1940 and i dont want a veil. if i want to take pictures before the wedding, then i'm going to. if i want to wear my hair down, i'm going to. i'm tired of everyone questioning every move i make. i'm tired of people thinking that being rude is funny. i'm tired of people thinking that being irresponsible is trendy.

i need to live my own life. i'm stuck being a child and i cant do it anymore. i cant live here where someone else is in charge. but that doesnt matter to anyone but me apparently. i feel like i'm going nowhere, i feel like we're going nowhere, but the one person who is supposed to care about me more than anyone else doesnt seem to be phased by it.

i've been on the verge of a breakdown for a long time and its finally hit me. i dont know how to stop it. i dont feel like i'm worthy. no matter what i say, its never good enough. he doesnt understand that nothing is ever going to be perfect and ideal like he dreams it to be, and he won't trust me when i say that we're going to be okay. i dont know how to get him to believe me, and its crushing me more and more everyday.

enough of my whining. i just needed to get it out.

Monday, November 10, 2008


tonight i'm lazy. and having a food baby. lots of dinner. since my camera (and pictures, strangely enough...) is elsewhere, your new picture for today is my new pretty header picture. lots of time and brain power and begging for photoshop help went into that. love it.

a telemarketer called my house tonight and hung up on me when i answered the phone "buddy the elf, what's your favorite color?" i found it highly satisfying.

and guess what?!


Sunday, November 9, 2008


today i'm going to be the crazy cat lady. please meet my gatos:

meet audrey hepburn. she's a little crazy, extremely elusive, and according to this picture, she only has one eye. she is only social at night when she does laps around my parents bed, begging for people to snuggle with her.

most everyone is familiar with grace kelly. more familiarly, fat grace. doesn't she look charming? she was not amused with our photo shoot.

dottie hinson. dottie rottie rooster. she's fat like grace and crazy like audrey. she only loves cito, no matter the circumstance. i think she should be sent to a mental facility.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


late blog tonight... i've been cleaning and packing all day. jesse and i havent found a place to live yet, but there are a few that we're calling about on monday, so keep everything crossed. i've basically packed everything not absolutely necessary to everyday life. all my summer clothes, scrapbooking stuff, books, photo albums, kitchen paraphernalia, decorations, picture frames, dvds... pretty much all the good stuff. all i have left are long sleeved shirts, roos, and all 10 seasons of friends to keep me alive until we find someplace non-ghetto to live.

have you seen, or rather heard, the new florida orange juice commercial? that tom selleck has such a smooth and beautiful voice. visions of the mustache just float through my brain every time i hear it. and its brought to you by the florida department of citrus! does washington have a department of apples? or rain? or coffee? i would LOVE to work at the washington department of coffee.

okay random. tv sometimes distracts me. here are today's pictures... just a couple for some insight into what my life is lacking right now... aka - all my stuff.

the boxes in the first picture are three-deep, and in the second one, they go all the way under the kitchen table and out the other side... the long way.

Friday, November 7, 2008

christmas music!

i love it. so so so much. of course i'm a cheater and have been listening to it for close to three weeks now, but that changes nothing. now its on tv! channel 900! and who says theres never anything on?

i would like to welcome one and all to my morning...

my breakfast...what's better than coffee and a book?

my car being towed's dead.

another pretty fall tree that i get to drive by every day :)

Thursday, November 6, 2008

i found it.

i found my wedding dress. it's perfect. i feel like a princess and a cupcake and the prettiest girl who ever put on a white dress. i spent more on it than i wanted to, but surprisingly, i dont care. i dont feel like every flaw is showing, i dont feel like i'm settling.

i cant post pictures, just in case jesse moseys along here, because we cant have cheating like that. but here's a picture that's almost as good...

IN MY TOWN!!! it's wicked awesome.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


well, i'm breaking my own goal today and not posting new pictures. instead, i'm contemplating the next four years in this country. i'm not all that impressed with our future president. not because i'm racist. because i'm human.

i'm disappointed that the youth of this country is even more bandwagon than world series-bound red sox fans. if you say you don't like obama, people think you're racist. if you like john mccain, they look at you like you have three heads. well, its a good thing my head is cute, because apparently i have extras.

as an employee of a small (think teenytiny) family-owned business, i fear for my job. taxes on businessowners are going to eviscerate those of us who work in the community, for the community, and with the community. i dont work at starbucks for a reason. maybe now i'll have to. it makes me sad for my future. i've always wanted my own business, my own coffee shop. i wonder if it will ever happen, looking into all of the ridiculous hoops i'll have to jump through.

i will continue to support my country, although for at least the next four years, i will not have a president. i will have "that guy" in the wrong washington. i voted for an american hero. if it were not for said american hero, "that guy" would not have had the freedom to run for the position of leader of the free world. in closing, i would like to say, when america is in deeper trouble than we are now, don't come crying to me; i didn't vote for him.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

my unexpected walk.

well, i'm not that bright. i decided it would be a good idea to leave the lights on on my car today, so that it would no longer start. so i took some pictures on my walk to work...

the last leaves

i hope you voted today!

an excellent creeper/uncle rico van in the parking lot

Monday, November 3, 2008

red, yellow, & orange.

not much to say today. talked to my best friend this morning, worked, worked, worked, now i'm off to have a date with my honey :)

to sum it up, i love fall.

Sunday, November 2, 2008

i love my family.

even when they drive me crazy and make me rip my hair out, i still love them.

we laugh and laugh until someone (... mom ...) snorts and then we laugh even harder.

i took this last night while we were playing a this point we had completely abandoned the rules and structure of the game and were just asking random trivia questions and cracking up. long live board games :)